Николь Забира

"If only I had known that frequent fevers could hide leukemia..." Nicole's mother sighed with tears in her voice.

"I realize now that the first symptoms started six months ago. Nicole began to have a fever of 38. The pediatrician during regular check-ups wrote it off as teething... I was somewhat relieved until a month ago when the fever was no longer completely relieved by antipyretics. At the same time Nicole began to refuse to eat and slept most of the time. I sounded the alarm. We were rushed by ambulance to the infectious diseases ward. For two weeks we were put on antibiotics, but the fever still wasn't coming down. The tests were very bad. I saw that my daughter was only getting worse and insisted on a transfer to Donetsk. After consulting with Donetsk specialists we were transferred to children's oncohematology department. It was a shock, because in my place of residence oncology was excluded! We had a bone marrow puncture on the day of our transfer.
Three days later we got the answer from the Moscow lab. Myeloblastic leukemia. You know, when they show slow motion scenes in movies. That's how I spent the whole day, while they were preparing us for the start of chemotherapy. It was like I was looking at everything from the outside. It was like I was in a fog. I automatically followed all the orders of the doctors. When the tests were taken again, when the catheter was inserted into Nicole's tiny body... The very next day we were given high-dose chemotherapy. And that's when I burst into tears. I was crying and I couldn't stop. I looked at my tiny baby girl wrapped in tubes and wires and cried. What brought me to my senses was the bleeding that had started abruptly from Nicole's nose...I was like waking up. The fear for her life was so strong, that I realized one thing - we need to pull ourselves together. After all, my little girl is 100 times worse than me. We have been undergoing chemotherapy for a week now. It's very hard. Nicole cries all the time. My little baby... and she can't tell me where it hurts. She is small and can't talk yet, but she understands everything... She knows that when the doctor in a white coat comes, it will hurt again... Even when she falls asleep she sobs in her sleep... Bleeding is so bad, there are sores all over her mouth. It is unbearable to watch your beloved child suffering. What will happen next, I can't even imagine. I pray to God to give me and my daughter the strength to survive all this.

On 02.11 Nicole's heart stopped beating... It pains us incredibly to write these lines... But the baby's body could not withstand the high-dose chemo treatment. Nicole was gone... The doctors fought all weekend for her life, but the disease was stronger... Cancer ruthlessly took another innocent little life...

We send our condolences to the girl's parents... We mourn with you all!
May you rest in peace! Soft clouds to you, little angel!

We thank everyone who responded to our requests for help for Nicole. It hurts so much that sometimes the cancer is stronger...

From October 30th until November 2nd we collected 74,395 rubles for Nicole, which will be spent on helping 13 year old Lisa Nasirova. The girl has acute myeloblastic leukemia. The child is being treated at the Department of Oncohematology of the Institute of Oncohematology named after Gus. Gusak. Lisa has a difficult fate... And the circumstances are such that only her grandmother is fighting for her life. She is going through a long period of treatment and we will try to help her through this difficult time...

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